Sunday 12 February 2012

Religious or not?

Twice a week I attend an afternoon "church" class with my mother in law. I didn't want to go at first but John made me and it actually is not too bad. I have not been particular religious but I like the warmth it can give you and it does feel nice to belong to something.

MIL is very religious and is pleased I now attend and is somehow converting me. She said she even makes John attend and he has been a few times at the weekend, probably to please her now doubt. He attends a mens only class though.

We rotate between 3 peoples houses. It is a house church, and is led by a small group of Christians all of whom are very nice and have welcomed me into the group, although I had to keep a small white lie from them, that being I was a virgin on my wedding night. Not that they asked any questions, they sort of just assumed.

Each week there is a guest speaker who reads from the bible and we then discuss what has been read. As the afternoon class is women (and sometimes joined after school by some of their daughters) the subjects mainly relate to the wife in the marriage and church and some of the topics are quite interesting . There are handouts to take back and discuss with your hubby.

Anyway I thought I would extract a few that relate to my marriage:

"Peter says that a husband is to honor or show special regard to his wife because she is the weaker vessel and she is a co-heir of God's saving grace."

I discussed this with John who agreed of course I was weaker but in a nice sense and that I needed guiding just like  a ship. I beleive I can manage without the full leadership of John but he says the wife's role is to follow her husband not decide for herself.

And of course this one I knew before:

"A woman shall not wear anything that pertains to a man, nor shall a man put on a woman's garment, for all who do so are an abomination to the Lord your God." Deuteronomy 22:5"

This is Johns reason for banning trousers of any type although he has never given me a real explanation about why bare legs are unacceptable?

I discussed some of the things with John but he does not talk about it much. I tried to ask him how anal sex is allowed in christian marriage but he stopped me and said he does not want me to talk about sexual matters as this is matter for him. That night when he came to bed he went straight for the lube, lubed my bottom up and proceded with anal sex. He likes anal sex but I am not that bothered, well I would rather not actually. The next morning he made me wear a butt plug so I think this was sort of punishment for asking him about anal sex.

So after many church meetings I really am none the wiser about some of John's ways. So many things are still a mystery to me. 

Friday 3 February 2012

Long time

Sorry I have not been blogging recently, I hope everyone who reads this is well.

After Christmas was over John in a nice way had said I had gained a little weight and I had answer him back a few times over, what else clothes. Christmas was a good excuse for him to buy me more skirts and dresses and his mother also chipped in with some clothes as well. John is the sort of man that would rather spend his money dressing me up than go to a football match, strange really. We had a little argument about in on new days when he had arranged to go for a walk with his family. I asked if I could borrow a pair of my old jeans I knew he had kept back but he said no. I was the only one in a skirt and I felt uncomfortable.

He was annoyed as well and said I was moaner and being bratty and how could womens clothes be something I could not enjoy? When we got home he took my upstairs and pulled  me over his knee. He lowered my skirt, tights and panties and spanked me for my behaviour. I was angry but gave in and accepted my punishment. He then told me to dress for bed and there I was, the first day of  the new year and in bed for 7.30pm

When he got into bed about midnight I half expected him to make love to me but I think he had drunk some wine and fell asleep. He did in the morning which was nice.

We had a chat the next day and he said I had been acting like a naughty school girl for some time and I will be treated like one. For the next two weeks it was early bed times and no answering back. I had to wear what ever he said and twice a week he arranged for his mother to come in and I would spend the day with her. That is punishment itself. He bought some new clothes and of course insisted no bare legs so its been tights and stockings, something I still dislike.

Things are okay now and he is chilled out a bit. Perhaps it was all the Christmas stress...

Love Kate